here goes nothing..

i've always love adele parks's work which explains my collection of books. the fact that her stories are down to earth made it very realistic and applicable. yet this tym round, for the same reasons, i doubt i have the same passion for the current book i'm on. the disturbing resemblance which almost every sentence carried pushed me off course. sigh.

i guess i had forgotten the lesson behind who moved the cheese. i'm still finding it hard to accept the facts which i've missed over the years of someone so dear. how could i ? when everyone proved their stand, i stood lost. it hurts not to know i've missed the change but to accept the harsh reality dat befalls is worse. its bad enough that they were right, but to witness her actions now which is in line with their accusations makes it even harder for me to digest. sigh.

i love your independence. but i wish u had used ur independence as a pillar of my support rather than a mould for me to fit in. perhaps u see me as a companion, where u could be least worried about which explains why u emphasized i should be independent, where i could be ur pillar of strength. of coz i would love to be dere for u but i would want to be able to rely on you as well, to be taken care of, to be of someone's worries, maybe not all the tym but at least.. at least be a joy to you to want to look after me. i wish u had asked me to wait till you're available to help me with e softwares instead of asking me to try it all out on my own. am i becoming too much of a burden ? sigh.

my normal academic class broke my heart. they gave up on themselves and i couldn't help but broke down. it sucks to be leaving my kids after how we've bonded. life is such a bitch. sigh.

at least my tears moved them (:

she said it had always been that way for a long long tym its just me who refuse to accept it. am i supposed to present an award ? (:

i was told of an analogy of shampoo and water supply. i guess shampoo can't be left in the head even if it smelt nice (:

she asked if i had fever. i told her no and asked why. she claimed the latest case of h1n1 is a woman feeling breathless. i explained i was not out of breath but had difficulties breathing, its my heart dat has a prob. and she says ya, totally. thanks (:

the truth always hurt doesn't it ? she claims she feels bonded with them but they complained to me how much dey didn't lyk her. i believe its for the best dat this is only known to me (:

the 3 words i hate most:
used to be
the 2 words i hate most:
don't know
the 1 word i hate most:
can

i would appreciate a free fall.

old skl or not, old skl or not ? hmmm, probably not much of a diff.

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