she cried. i hate dat asshole. she so deserves betta. i tot i could cheer her up with my pathetic life. but to my surprise, i cried as i spoke from the bottom of my heart. its amazing how ignorant i can be towards my very own feelings. she was shock, let alone myself.

she said i should love myself more. i sent her home. it was out of the way. but i realised the joy of doing so when it involves my dearest. which goes to show my value towards certain ppl obviously aint enuff to allow dem to feel such joy, instead it turns out to be an obligation.

one edmund is enuff. i dun need 3 edmunds. its time i be an edmund. no ?

i ended up drunk with a mouthful of cigarette stench. hahaa, my way of loving myself more.

but i got to noe, dat slping on a best fren, having my hand held by a best fren and receiving the touch of console from a best fren is priceless. absolutely priceless. 9 yrs of frenship, first ever experience. they're my everything. i may be dumb in certain aspects but when it comes to my choice of frens, i'm probably the smartest.

i'm embarrassed by my cowardness. but that's my least worries.

i can't believe i spent almost 200 at watsons. ha. 200 plus spent in hours. feeling betta ? nope.

lyk he said, wads the big deal. not lyk i've nv failed. i just gotta retake it.

its apalling that i can type with the amount of intoxication i've consumed. nv underestimate a body's capability.

i should probably visit cameron highlands alone, i reckon.

how on earth did i manage to get home again ?

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