my first fall ytd.
i took it hard.
and had the cheek to push the blame.
but fuck.
the truth is, i was so caught up with you, that i totally neglected me.
and obviously, i'm the idiot who screwed up.
the idiot that seriously i dunno why on earth am i still carrying an organiser.

but the alone time did me good. ur food allergy actually soothed what i tot may caused otherwise. then the lecturer commented that its weird why some believe that ppl of the opposite characters are of perfect match. bcoz the fact is, he emphasized, ppl of diff worlds are just not meant to be. instead, of those whom share similar characteristics, fit perfectly tog. hmmm, did the finishing pt just got replaced by the starting pt ?

then todae came.
i took out the gift.
the gift that was kept.
of all these years.
i kept.
kept in..
the shelve.
or closer than wad it seems ?
of all the days, she just had to question me. the way she threw me the possible routes that got me cornered, then left laughing. and the classic closure of; you'll nv noe.

but today, i'll be downright honest. when it comes to u, just u, i hate myself. and pauline, wadever i said was probably denials. walls after walls i plastered, just to cover up my tracks. i'm sorry. to whom ? to myself.

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