the farewell came. it took me by suprise, but what more can i say. the worst thing is, i don't feel anything. its more of lyk, wasted ? and thanks mori, i was nv in the wrong, LOL ! i guess besties always say wad u wanna hear , ahhahaa !! its just blank. sad to say. just not there. get it over and done with ? lol.. shhush ! zzZ

it was dim
but there was light
yet towards the bright
it offed,
fell i did not
tripped- i back
the doubt
i can't rid
why
be it i've gotta bid ?

dejavu ? what more can i say.
following either heart or brain is nv an easy option. i guess i'll stick to laiding.

dont ask,
the answer i have not
why.
i can't explain
scared, i may be
bothered, i can't be
tired, i don't want be
of whom to be
near nowhere i'd be

i can be a fortune teller from the way things turn out with such overlapping of my poems. then again, its following the heat. still, entertainment was great, company was awesome, carrying your big fat textbook is really chicken. lol. bubbye~

contradiction start :
i should not
i don't care

i want to..
but i don't want to.

sense ?
you gotta be kidding me.

it hit me hard when u said those words to me, then again, wad have i been missing. on the other hand, others, i lyk wad u said, and i know u're luffing in my face in my expense ! still i know wad i said was dumb. hahaaa, well, it was a good one kay ! and i guess i almost lost my diamond, smiles.

it was dere but poof. beats me. still, thanks. but its not my fault. and the blame shouldn't be on me. and i don't have to say sorry. so why are u making me feel obliged to feel bad and apologise. okie, i'm pushing e blame to e victim, if i have to feel bad, it is now. bu shi wo de jiu bu shi wo de. song shang men lai, wo do ke yi miss diao. 4D oso not so jun !

i fell for rome, the love was everywhere. its presence was strong but sincere. the buildings, the art.. the scenery. europe was fun. sheeps going mehh~ lol, fur squeezy lyk aniting. life size cows !! pigs, oink ! ahahaa. got a gay tour guide ! wth.. lol, how can i possibly not enjoy. he damn cute la. plus the couples of all sorts, the comedy, the irritating in a good way, the sweet and the honest. all flavours, u name it i have it. but bloody toilets so expensive !! and everything i did, u popped in. i can't believe even my chopsticks were crooked !! when i bite my straw, when i drool while slping, when i wore ankle socks only having them to slip, when i take candid shots, when i give toopid faces, when.. its nv ending. day dreaming ? lol.

the first night. i don't know why, but my bed stretched lyk foreva, and i just feel so alone. and i turn wishing to be in your arms. monday came, and i lost it. the tears i was nv aware of, such feelings; actuali existed, the pain. i officially died. then i was laughed at ! but it was funny, hahahaa. oh wells. it hurts to know that u were hurting. still..
then again.

laiding is the trick i guess.

right down to the void deck, the smoking, the porridge, the barley, the teaching, the preaching, the wanting, the demanding, the lazing, the sticking, the arcading..

hell, i was in, my life flipped. asian foodddd !!! breathing.. i think of you like i breathe, how can i stop ? don't breathe ? ahhaaha..

i step back bcoz it was plasticky.
then rolling.
ends cold.
playing.
Laiding~

worn flat.

retelling, wound in a wound but crystal clear

moment, laughing it off does numb the pain.

poof ! though..
what more can i say.