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there is only one life;
mine

Thursday, November 05, 2009

i went to popular. i stopped in my tracks. the photo album section caught my eye. i paused. den i walked..

i blurted.
yes, the word still haunts me.

he was more right than ever. or rather he is.

i need a guide book. my very own guide book.

can't get any better

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6:46 PM

Monday, November 02, 2009

i guess there's a first time to everything. when vodka cranberry and vodka pineapple doesn't taste different. hahaa.

somewhere over the rainbow,
i'll find my 4 leaf clover.
each encrypted with words that are depreciation free.
of whom i may find my clover in the hands of,
may i say,
is none other but you..
(:

the vicious cycles,
its humorous.

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4:48 PM

Sunday, October 25, 2009

"girl, this is crazy. no need for mourning periods one. i overlapped mine !" goodness, can u believe this girl. i love (: "go find him for dinner" hahaa, love her two. "badbear". lol

"hubby just parked the car. coming up now" beautiful wifey image painted.

its amazing how the day evolved. from utterly depressing to fantastically happy. i said i'll get it right this tym, didn't i ? she claimed her tsunami was way hugeR dan mine, hahaaa. is dere even such a word ? love her three.

i love the stroll, beams.

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7:34 PM

Thursday, October 22, 2009

there're two types of ppl in this world. those that lie and get caught and those who lie too, but dun get caught.

tears come and go,
be it when grandpa sunshine is up or low.
the shivers sneak around,
as the wind know its ground.
but why the room of how.
due to a self called fish
or the agony of lease ?
is it because of the line in time,
or the girl in mind..

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1:39 PM

Saturday, October 17, 2009

how can my judgement of others be right when my very own judgement of myself is wrong ?

i lyk it this way.

met up with my drop1 gang today. bestfren's mom rawk, awesome cook. we should mit up more often, not every deepavali. hahaa.

awesome food at prime society, with my patpom guys and wife. beverage on the house, sweet of lerrick. gaming soon i hope ! and i can't wait for thailand. hmmm.

and so.. umm. one only bothers when one cares. bcoz why ask, when one is not concerned ?

can't wait for rollerblading tmr ! east coast park, here i come !

badminton was AWEsome !!! fantastic tym spent with my colleagues. from the hulk to the cheerleading moves, to the doodling to the samosa ! more similar sessions to come !! every fri :D

"i haf a fren with me, u mind ?"
"i haf a malaysian with me, u mind ? his name is ah wai."
HAHAHAAahaa, hilarious !
"li jun, take off ur costume eh, we haven reach"
HAHAHHAhahaha, assholes !
can't wait for halloween, beams.

blue mansion cast is good. but the timing, not so when everyone decided to catch some shut eyes.

lovely fri, sat, sun.

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11:33 PM

Friday, October 16, 2009

i told her.
she gave her two cents worth.
wad can i say..

did i mention i lyk being a chauffeur ? only to my mom, dat is. beams.

ikea was lovely. bed frames shopping was fun, literally napped on the bed. heez :D ! but dats the way to try it, isn't it ?

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12:12 AM

Monday, October 12, 2009

i'm smiling, giggling even..

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9:26 AM

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

the silly woman refused to mention her birthday. it pains me. dad bought me a mini wristlet. nice~ i lyk the shopping session. thou it was only wad, 5 to 10 mins max ? its been awhile. exchange of opinions, beams. dad paid for mom's earrings too (:

falling ill sucks. sucks big tym.

but 9 course lunch rocks ! i found out dat bo can actuali be hot !! hahahaa, when he's cooking !!! the big tummy can be missed. HAHAHAHAHAHA. bro, u shud seriously consider switching careers- chef ! and i finally got to drive a toyota rush !! woohoO :D

"nothing defines me. except you and you mother"
ouch

i'm happy (: very pleased with the way i make frens. with my heart, not words. dey made my day.

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8:00 PM

Sunday, October 04, 2009

mid autumn festive lyk nv before. smiles.

da gu says the wound nv heals. its just fine when untouched.
nostalgia

sp words haunt me. sigh.

she called. she called. she called. he texted. i.. i'll miss dem.

anitym, how expensive the meal is. i'm willling. as long as she enjoys (: i love this woman of mine. happy b'dae mommy. and i'll give up aniting just to watch u slp. love how we can talk aniting under the sun, and i mean aniting.

toyota rush, weE~ not so wee when i turned into the oncoming traffic lane :\ nth beats chit chat sessions.

i may not haf a bank of cold hard cash. but i've got a bank of hugs (:

somehow swimming doesn't seem to be happening :\

mahjong is fun, tiring bcoz SOMEONE keep diao zheng, but fun. beams. and cheese rawk. bu kui shi jurong de. hahahhaa. i lyk~ and john is my lucky gem, it was tru his hands i got the winning tile !

they say, a picture speaks a thousand words. i reckon the heart stores images far prettier dan pictures, in a place called
memories.

i watched jia hao yue yuan. the last scene, i cried. mom said it was silly of me to cry dat hard. i tried to smile. i guess only i noe..

if i gave u my heart, will you just play the part ?

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5:24 PM

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

2 weddings in 3 days. sweet (: pleasantly sweet. felt the couples' joy, and of coz sharing it with some of my awesome pals. still, it wasn't very smart to turn up without a partner. expecially when there was photo taking and everyone has to be in, posing with their other half. well, thankfully there was collin and jorden which fit in with me (:

the first time, in all these months, i didn't feel motivated, not the least bit, to show up for work. sigh. in fact, i would have taken leave if it wasn't for my kids. still, i noe i merely glided tru the day, patronising is the word.

i guess its not only my work. i didn't even feel lyk turning up for my own classes. how fantastic. i would probably be shaoping's classmate next sem, if this continues, maybe alvin's too and dixon. sigh. isorg is boring, dead boring.

wad else, my house, not only my room this tym round, is in a complete mess. i mean yes, there're times i leave bits and pieces of my belongings around, but never in sucha mess. i'm kinda clueless how i shud even get started.

kel's party was nice, yep nice is the word. subtle, but great. everyone was present except for eugene, but i guess it was good enuff he turned up for sheng's bdae since we haven seen him for ages. and if it wasn't for shalinee's bdae, i wouldn't haf the opportunity to catch up with him and vanessa. liked it (:

"we're not tog ready"
"wad hppened ?"
"i neglected her for the past couple of months, never send her home.."
"why lidat"
"i'm a bastard. my fault"
(: he's nice.

"leaving so early ?"
"yea, got project to do"
"oh, den how will u be going home ?"
"he asked me to drive his car home and he'll take the cab"
(: another nice guy.

i'm proud of my guys.

"and you're pretty ytd. omg i can't believe i'm saying this"
sucha asshole. hahha.

"sunny on the outside. the walks tell. they don't do it with you"

daiso was fun (: nv failed to cheer me up. awesome time. and to say "stupid" with style is just not dat easy to master. hahaha.

can't wait to bond with shaoping :D not that we haven done enuff. lol.

thankful to haf wonderful colleagues (:

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9:11 AM

Friday, September 25, 2009

she stopped for a chat. they teased and went seperate ways after the conversation ended. she strided along the walk way as the wind brushed against her cheeks. as soon as she was oos(of his at least), the wind seemed to have taken on a different direction and left her hair falling down as still as her heart felt. she walked on. slow small steps, she took. each step seemed to bring her further away from the destination. the weight on her seemed to be rooted to the ground. the call that dawned upon disapointment, nothing unusual actually. yet tears started welling up. detached-

best damn thing (:

it seems like its gaining weight period. damn. i need to swim these fats off ! would be nice if he could do it with me though, rather than just sharing with me as it being the best way to lose weight and how people of his age are all turning to this exercise since the other sports ain't very efficient; leaving them with sore bodies. oh well, it would be weird on second thoughts. the ink on me aint gonna provide warm hospitality, i would assume.

every page that unfolds, brings the end nearer.

new york and london. sweet. but europe's betta. beams. yada yadda da~ damn, i wanna see london bridge. pouts-

i wan my strawberries. but she said its the rainy season, i'll probably drown in a land slide :\

its scary to witness two face people in action. experienced it since secondary through poly. i thought i would nv chance upon that nasty route, since i've chosen otherwise. but i guess its a small world. routes meet, one way or another.

i'm tired. but happy. beams. lil slp is nth as long as u get to do wad u wan to.

seriously, something has to be done. bigger closet maybe :\

its not too difficult to noe how they felt. but i'm different, no ?

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9:31 AM

Thursday, September 24, 2009

she was right when she said you will be motivated to do things when you love the person. smiles.

To dream that you or someone is yelling, represents repressed anger that need to be expressed. If you are yelling and no one hears, then it suggests that you are being ignored. You feel that your voice does not matter or that your opinion doesn't count. woohoO. this is just so addictive. ha.

somehow, i felt that the "almost can't" had more truth to it than "nonsense, of cause can la" hahaaa, overlapping tummy.

i had wake up calls (:

some msges just nv fail to make me smile.

"god is nice to me"
"alvin is nice to you la huh"
hahahaa.

make the beat for me~ claps, lets start dinner !! hahahAHAHAaha. OWNED !

i must say i'm speechless, very much impressed.

miss late nights with my ladies, and mj/saboteur khakis. and la kopi sessions of coz.

work study study work work study. tired.

hmmm.

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6:35 PM

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

j'avais voulu écrire cette entrée pour des âges. cependant, le temps n'est pas très aimable avec moi en retard. c'est minuit passé, je devrait être dormant considérant moi ont des classes demain. mais j'ai juste obtenu d'obtenir ceci outre de mon coffre. elle a dit si l'amour d'u quelqu'un, vous sera motivé pour faire des choses. je pleure réellement en dactylographiant ce rapport. bon dit. je me trouve très tracassé par les petites choses récemment. drôle. je devine qu'on le considère comme assez en retard être tracassé par une telle substance en ce moment de temps.mais il n'est jamais trop tard, non ? il a dit que vous êtes mon chevalier dans l'amour brillant. je suis reconnaissant. mais de ce que j'ai besoin est quelqu'un dont je peux dépendre. quelqu'un qui viendra me cherchent et m'aident avec le poids. quelqu'un qui m'aidera à trouver de ce que j'ai besoin et à ne pas m'attendre à ce que je le fasse sur mes propres. quelqu'un qui ne me laissera pas derrière dans la foule. quelqu'un qui m'embrassera de temps à autre. quelqu'un qui me veut. elle disent pourquoi la nécessité elle s'est mise par une telle misère. elle ne pourrait pas croire que j'ai dû acheter l'état d'air. j'ai souri.je doute de tout. mais il n'est pas comme comme si je profite d'un agréable moment à douter. il blesse. mais qui saurait ? de quoi l'utilisation est-elle eue mon nombre de maison quand elle n'est pas mise à l'utilisation ? la colère doit-elle être au-dessus de tout autrement, toute l'heure ? oui, j'ai comparé pour qu'elle se sente mieux. mais elle blesse. elle fait vraiment. ce week-end était dur pour obtenir à travers. il obtient le clairifiant. j'ai été des films contagieux avec vous récemment. ce qui s'attriste me. parce que probablement je sais que ce pourrait être la dernière exposition nous sommes contagieux ensemble.l'une chose que j'ai apprise, ne dois pas faire confiance à des types. parfois, plus j'essaye de ne pas suivre mon mother' dur ; des marchepieds de s, plus je deviens prudent. de plusieurs manières je vous trouve semblable à lui. ce ne serait pas le mariage que je veux. pourtant quelques mots simples de vous peuvent facilement me tirer de nouveau dans le trou noir. il est vrai que le destin ait une manière drôle de choisir sa prise de candidat. au commencement les différences peuvent attirer les opposúx. mais à la longue, ce peut juste être la raison de la contrainte et de l'échec d'un rapport.

la plus grande erreur que j'ai faite probablement, suis le jugement de me.

tout au sujet de mon rêve est allumée tache. il est regrettable.

c'est une bonne chose des travaux de ce mécanisme de traduction seulement à sens unique. de l'autre côté, il n'est pas comme comme si vous iriez ce mille supplémentaire.

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12:56 AM

Sunday, September 13, 2009

To dream that you commit suicide, suggests that conditions in your life are so frustrating that you no longer want to deal with the situation or relationship You may be harboring feelings of guilt that you cannot get over and thus turning the aggression on yourself. You need to start approaching problems from a different angle. Alternatively, it may suggest that you are saying good-bye to one aspect of yourself and hello to a whole new you. It is symbolic of a personal transformation or a new stage in your life. hmmm. alright, smiles.

"i love you, mdm. u helped me passed english !" job satisfaction (:

i feel lyk its xmas every now and den, and santa's rewarding me with bags and bags of goodies (:

i'm glad my frenship with sp has taken a step further. its pretty surprising, but a pleasant one. her words haunt me. is it trust or faith dat i haf, which disallowed me to believe or is it denial ?

its been a long while since i last met my dearest pauline. well, not exactly long, but in the sense of having a heart to heart talk, its been too long. somehow, her words got into me and my tears decided to visit. she apologised, but i felt dat it wasn't necessary, she was merely stating facts, we both noe dat. hugs. i'm glad we met.

i was sure, more certain dan ever. yet ? wad can i say, its a vicious cycle.

i guess dere are guys falling under the PETERS category, who are named otherwise (: i'm glad, thou i haf my doubts, it still managed to encourage some hoping.

hmmm. i'm somewhat lost in my own thoughts.

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Thursday, September 10, 2009

got in touch with my pig buddy recently. both of us experienced near death incidents. god bless us. i wonder if our pig club would last or falter. oh well, i guess its now dat matters.

constant replenish of goodies, pigship privileges :D

i was mistaken as a wife-to-be. goodness, can it get more embarrassing ? and i can't get over the pig throtters' trail- all over the maps. hahaa.

she was all so excited to make me her accomplice, wth.

i was so worn out dat i wore my mask and fell aslp, happily staining my pillow case with my cream mask.

then she returned from her dental and insisted on squeezing with me on my tiny single size bed. lyk hello, no space~ den she suggested getting me a queen size bed, so she can come over and nap with me. hahaha. not a bad deal, if u asked me.

last but the least, the ever retarded spying-into-cabs to check if its 8pm, so as to avoid the peak hour charge. hahhaa. how more retarded can things get ?

lovely day-

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9:47 PM

To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and a way to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In our daily lives, we tend to ignore, deny, or repress our feelings. But in our dream state, our defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of such emotions.

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2:28 AM

Sunday, September 06, 2009

i bought it for u, but i decided to give it away.

i can tell u're trying. but i believe u could've done betta. still, the lie was too much to bear. its coming 2 yrs, stability should be present. u could laugh with me, when i mocked her. u could act as if she was a stranger when she appeared. but the truth is ? i start to doubt everything, once again. perhaps, all this while u two nv stopped contacting. i feel betrayed. to look into my eyes and tell that lie tog with explanation to support the lie, was really hurting. is it worth it ? to jeopardize our rs for her ? it hurts. the same excuse, its not the first time. i'm disappointed. every time i decided to trust all over again, u'll push me down to hit rock bottom. this tym round, i dunno.. i dunno how else, i shud react, say, feel or handle the situation. i've got questions, but i dun see the point of asking. i dunno wad i wish to hear, i dunno if its another lie i'll get to hear.

drawn back.

i hate her.

i dunno wad to feel towards u.

i miss my ladies.

i want out.

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10:49 PM

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

To dream that you are obese, denotes lack of self-esteem and overindulgence. It may signify your hopelessness and helplessness to express and assert power and authority. This dream may also mean that you are trying to insulate yourself from your surroundings. You want to protect yourself from any involvement in a situation.

and the list just goes on...
can it get any clearer ? my dreams seem to be more truthful dan reality. hmmm.

finally, after the long wait, my results are out. and i'm super pleased. super super pleased. second class honors @ graduation, u're mine for sure :D !

i think i'm getting smarter. heheeh. its not dat hard when one allows the acceptance of tell tale signs (:

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3:18 PM

Monday, August 31, 2009

To dream about your birthday, denotes acceptance of yourself. You are celebrating who you are and coming to terms with who you are as a person.

To see a birthday cake in your dream, indicates that the best of your wishes will be realized. It also represents your willingness to let people in and share your life with others.

To dream that you are setting a trap, indicates that you are trying desperately to hold onto a relationship, to some old habits or to your former ways. Alternatively, the dream signifies your readiness to take action.

To see a killer in your dream, suggests that an essential aspect of your emotions have been cut off. You feel that you are losing your identity and your individuality. Alternatively, this dream may represent purification and the healing process. You are standing up for yourself and putting a dramatic end to something.

To dream that you are in or part of a crowd, signifies that you need to make some space for yourself. You need solitude to reflect on a situation at hand and recharge your energy. Consider also the familiar phrase of "going along with the crowd" which implies conformity and lack of individuality.

is dere lyk a course on this ?? its so amazing.

i've got in touch with my pig buddy recently. hopefully the frenship doesn't go mia again.

where is the meh meh ?

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Sunday, August 30, 2009

To dream that you are a teacher, indicates that you are in a position of disseminating your knowledge and wisdom to others. Alternatively, it could imply how you are "teaching someone a lesson" and giving them a hard time about something. If you are a teacher in real life, then the dream is just a reflection of who you are and your dreams about work.

To see a museum in your dream, indicates that your non-traditional path to success will make you unique and stand out from the rest. Alternatively, the museum may represent a history of yourself and your past. There are many things you can learn from your past and your family's past. Consider what you have gained from these experiences and apply them to your current circumstances.

To dream that you are in a museum, represents an opportunity for you to review and reflect on the things you value in life.

To dream that you are walking down a flight of stairs, signifies that you will face many setback in your endeavors.

To see green grass in your dream, suggests that there is a part of yourself that you can always rely on. The dream is also symbolic of natural protection. Also consider the phrase "the grass is always greener on the other side." Do you always compare yourself with others and look at what other people have?

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7:40 PM

To dream that you are quarreling with someone, indicates that there is some hidden hard feelings and conflict toward someone in your waking life. You are having difficulties expressing those negative feelings and thus the dream functions to draw those feelings out. You need to express them and open that line of communication in your waking life. Alternatively, the dream suggests some inner turmoil that is bothering you inside. You are under extreme tension and stress.

wads with all this turmoil going on inside of me man ?

went to the temple with mom today. everyone else was dere. i dunno why but i've always lyk meeting uncle peter and auntie mona. being around them just makes me feel very loved, genuinely, sincerely. and he's the perfect husband, the sight of them, their conversations, their actions, are simply.. i lyk. the reason for my smile. are all peters good husbands ? hahaa.

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Saturday, August 29, 2009

To see a blind person in your dream, suggests that you are letting opportunities pass you by.

To eat too much food at a buffet in your dream, indicates that some relationship is consuming your energies.
To dream that you are hording or storing food, indicates a fear of deprivation. You do not trust what you already have.

To dream that you are or feel helpless, suggests that you are experiencing difficulties in confronting a situation or relationship. You feel that you are unable to take charge of yourself.

To dream that you are sad, suggests that you need to learn from your disappointments and make yourself happy. Try not to dwell on the negative. The dream may be a reflection of how you are feeling in your waking life.

To dream that you are a spy, indicates your mistrust of others.

To dream that you are in a fight, indicates inner turmoil. Some aspect of yourself is in conflict with another aspect of yourself. Perhaps an unresolved or unacknowledged part is fighting for its right to be heard. It may also parallel a fight or struggle that you are going through in your waking life.

To dream that someone is hiding, indicates that you are looking for a sense of security and protection.

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Thursday, August 27, 2009

close frens came by todae, splendid (:
la kopi session, tops !

went to interpret the symbols of my dreams, so kewl.
feel free http://www.dreammoods.com
its pretty true ?

i was browsing tru my blog, looking for a particular entry. found it, relived the moment. nostalgia strong enuff to knock my senses in and put me into action, literally. but sadly, i'm only 3/4 dere. sigh. i am pretty sure of wad i want. i reali dunno wad am i lacking of now, dats stopping me.

if only, i still haf a car, not injured, not working tmr. westcoast, i would have gone.

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Wednesday, August 26, 2009

earlier, i woke at 11 plus and laid in bed till almost 2. how amazing it is dat i can always be so absorbed in my thoughts.

last night i stood at the very window where i used to run through my thoughts when darkness falls. soon later, it was the spot i would frequently puff at, in the middle of the night. as years passed, i stood at the very same window but got involved in diff activities. i went on monitoring my bike, making sure no one vandalizes it. and finally, checking if fatimah is around to give me a fine on my car. yet at this moment, or rather last night, i stood dere doing nth, just gazing around. i'm back to square one. i guess in life, its normal to make huge detours and be back at the start line. and i can't help but ponder over bo's words when we were still in np, at the cosy smoking corner behind the overhead bridge. well, only time will tell.

i realised i can be very bias. from the way i place my chips disproportionately, its pretty clear. this isn't a good thing. i'll try to change.

of all ppl, i should've known better; how it feels lyk to be in a nv ending race, to haf finally caught sight of the target, managed to hold on to the target for a moment and head back tog, only to realise dat after a short while the target would slip of my grip and move in the opp direction where the chase has to start all over again. i shuld haf known better dat the grip would be tighter each tym for the fear of losing the target increases. but i guess its nv easy to see the bigger picture when u're in it. its tiring, i know.

home visits are really warm to my heart. where such company is of much appreciation.

mom said bcoz of my accident, alot of her plans got cancelled. and there's this upcoming wedding of her ex boss's daughter in india where arrangements have been made. but if i dun get any better, the trip might hafta be forgone. it feels lyk the first day in the hospital, where it did hurt really bad and tears were flowing but i chose to put up a diff slide and gave assurance instead. one person going tru the agony and pain is enuff, i dun nid my love ones to go tru it with me. and as days passed, my emotions got more unstable but i choose to relate to everyone dat i'm fine. now dat my condition has worsen, i really can't bring myself to be honest with her.
`being at the wrong place at the wrong tym

i feel lyk having a la kopi session. the chilling would do me good.

i'm looking forward to next yr. i made a plan. or rather a few of us made a plan. lets see if the plan will be carried out.

if one is sinking and dere were 3 life boats:
one dat wouldn't sink but remains stationary
one dat moves but can't gaurantee when it will be deflated
one dat moves and has warranty of not sinking (at least not as fast)
is it really dat hard ?
life.

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2:47 PM

Sunday, August 23, 2009

got awaken by a nasty gastric. why is it only that when pain is inflicted that one would be aware of the situation ?

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9:04 AM

although it seemed lyk just a blink of an eye. every second seemed lyk a month when i was living through it. my tears were of fear, frustration, exasperation and the worst amongst is having to feel helpless. its bad enuff to not be understood. but to be bed ridden and having to go tru the shyt you get from others bcoz u don't have a choice literally, is the most torturous emotional state i have ever experienced- that is to be helpless, just helpless.

i appreciate those who came, those who fed me, those who checked on me, those who got worried, those who cared. a big thanks, and a genuine hug from me to u.

to not be able to rely on others may be disappointing or sad, but i've learnt, to not be able to rely on myself is as good as the end of the world.

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1:25 AM

i am fucked up.
i made stupid choices, leading to pathetic plights. to think the ending would be of vast difference if i hadn't screwed up over and over again.

its no wonder ppl dun get it right the first tym.

when will i haf the fucking courage to fucking stop living in this lie. fuck. can i just fucking stop being sucha a dumb fucking ass ??!!

i am so fucking irritated with myself. i am made the joke, lyk wow, thanks. i appreciate it~

fuck.

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1:14 AM

Monday, August 17, 2009

who ever said teaching is boring should eat their shoes.

witness an assault involving fire extinguisher smashing into another's face.
protect a student.
fight a student.
got sent to a&e.
got stalked but students (they're hell of a good, or rather top notch paparazzi)
get constant dosage of hugs
get to play wii
etc etc

hmmm, i've been pondering. who ever said three left turns make a right turn, obviously hasn't taken economics.
whilst taking every left turn, dere's opportunity cost. which means one right turn is forgone each time. and by the tym one reaches the right turn, the value of that very right turn has long lost its value due to depreciation. and in reality, dere're times where one wrong move, leads to a route of no return. similarly, one left turn can be more costly dan one can ever imagine. its always easier to get it right the first tym.

in life, who doesn't make use of another ?

the first working day of the week is the hardest to get by and definitely is most energy draining. it isn't the first tym i've cancelled my appointments. dozing off becomes a norm.

i just got to noe, running can lead to hallucination. how cool is dat ?

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10:26 PM

Monday, August 03, 2009

doc: has this happened before ?
me: nope
doc: we'll put u under observation for now. probably the hormones, are u under alot of stress lately? i could prescribe u pills but if it persists, u nid to get an ultrasound done.

i miss taka back alleying~ i need my dosage of u.

the walls crept in. the window that shone through the room with the flickering light. the answers dat need no decoding. the spider webs that need serious clearing. the magic that needs no wand.

maintenance is costly, isn't dat wad dey all say ? but w/o it, an overhaul woud prob be needed, no ?

shopping bag, mall, walk, puke, ride, westcoast.


circles have no ends, its continuous but it spins the reverse too.

june is missed.

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5:10 PM

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

i guess being sick makes me whinny, especially when u're down with flu and slight fever and still hafta drive, carry bags and bags of stuff while back home the clothes need packing, the pets' litter tray needs clearing etc. and not having any appetite for dinner for 3 consecutive days adds on to the overall crankiness. not forgetting the annoyingly user UNfrenly mac products on hand.

well...
u did wash my fan, ask if i needed to see the doc, offered ice cream with pancake after pizza, prepare my running needs... heez.

chris says: ni yi ding shi shen me dou gen lao gong shuo. cuo liao la. you xie dong xi shi bu neng shuo de. kan ni ben ben yi ding shi shen mo dou xiang yao gen lao gong fen xiang. bu ke yi na me ben !
my god, i've always tot sharing was easier den hiding. no ? hmmm.

when one has got no tym to eat from the moment one steps into the office till one leaves and only managed to buy food but dozed off before even eating it, one is absolutely, definitely won out. i need a human charger~

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6:07 PM